Not sweating the small stuff Image credit — Google images“I just saw my first grey hair. I’m getting old :(“, was my cousin’s text last evening. “We all are. Relax,” I replied. “Hmm.” “I noticed permanent lines on my forehead today. There’s nothing that
Speaking to doctors Image credit — Google Images/CDCI lightly tapped at my bag, observing the hills from the window of the doctor’s room. Dad was seated next to me, quiet without any expression on his face. My brother was standing behind, holding
The mortality talk — (ii) Image credit — Google ImagesAs Mum goes back to her stitching and Dad gets busy on his phone, the news of sudden death of Mum’s distant cousin sinks in slowly. Mum keeps guessing the cause of death, remembering how sick
The worth of revisiting childhood Image credit — Google ImagesWe all have some fond memories from our childhood, don’t we? Sometimes they sprout back through the aroma of your favourite savoury dish, or when a childhood beanie pops out of the winter clothes’
Keeping a balance between the good and the bad news Image credit — Google imagesHeart beating fast ready to pop out of my mouth, hands icy cold, voice weak, and stomach grumbling, I stepped into the radiological unit to enquire about Dad’s MRI
When emotions take over unexpectedly Image credit — Google imagesHaving an ill parent often means that your emotions are on tenter hooks. Regardless of how much you’re accustomed to the illness, its side effects, its pain, and its outcome; the anxiety never ceases
A good night sleep Image credit — Google imagesThe first thing I do these days after waking up in the morning is ask Dad, how was his sleep last night. His usual reply over the past few weeks has been, “Slept well. Woke
Creating memories I’ve always been worried about not spending enough time with my Dad, especially more since his diagnosis. When I was finishing my Master’s in Singapore, I would crave to be with him and book flight tickets for home
Undo the mundane chemo daycare regime Image credit — New Yorker / Google ImagesChemotherapy, despite being one of the most rigorous medical treatments, demands a pretty simple administration regime. More often than not, cancer patients spend a few hours at the hospital’s daycare,
Erasing the “why us” syndrome Image credit — Google imagesMax Hospital — Scene I “Are you from Deepshika’s* batch?”, asked a middle-aged lady as she saw me walking into the chemo ward. “Ahh, you’re Deepshika Di’s mother? I’m her junior from school.” “Deepika’s* batch?” “No, the
A journalist by training, Mariyam Haider is a writer and performance poet in Singapore.
She is the researcher of the book The Billionaire Raj: A Journey Through India’s New Gilded Age written by James Crabtree.
Her writing has appeared in Hindustan Times, Livemint, Feminism In India, New Asian Writing and Kitaab.